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Sunday, December 26th, 2010
2:23 pm - sidenote.
This isn't meant to last....
This is for right now.


current mood: determined

(you will never go down to the gods again)

Saturday, December 25th, 2010
1:21 pm
Okay my journal just jumpted fucking like four inches to the left screwing up the alignment for EVERYTHING and I have no fucking idea why, considering I haven't fucked with the source code for it in months.

But now I'm really pissed off and it's doing it's best to thwart all my efforts to fix the fucking thing.

So yeah. My journal is lame now. >____>

i Guess it's time to make a new fucking layout in that case.

Damnit.

Merrz Xmas.

(you will never go down to the gods again)

12:27 pm - ATWA.


Hey you, see me, pictures crazy
All the world I've seen before me passing by

I've got nothing, to gain, to lose
All the world I've seen before me passing by

You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more

Hey you, are me, not so pretty
All the world I've seen before me passing by

Silent my voice, I've got no choice
All the world I've seen before me passing by

You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more

I don't see, anymore
I don't hear, anymore
I don't speak, anymore
I don't feel

Hey you, see me, pictures crazy
All the world I've seen before me passing by

I've got nothing, to gain, to lose
All the world I've seen before me passing by

You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more
You don't care about how I feel
I don't feel it any more

I don't sleep, anymore
I don't eat, anymore
I don't live, anymore
I don't feel


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current mood: discontent

(you will never go down to the gods again)

Wednesday, November 17th, 2010
2:57 am - Hey

Recent Kyuubi pictures! Go see my daughter NOW yes!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=18243&id=100001517107658

I know, right, FINALLY.



( and on a sidenote, I just found a torrent for DVD quality of The Broken Movie, a snuff type film released by Nine Inch Nails a loooong time ago, there was crappy VHS versions of it all over in the 90s but Trent Reznor actually leaked a REAL version online and now I am trying to download it and I am SO EXCITE, but the stupid fucking thing has 11 seeders and is still only downloading at 9 k/bs @ the fastest, it's making me really fucking grump. >____________________> )


current mood: excited

(you will never go down to the gods again)

Monday, November 15th, 2010
6:00 am - Love..it's who you know.


"Fuck You (An Ode To No One)"

I'm never coming back
I'm never giving in
I'll never be the shine in your spit
I disconnect the act
I disconnect the dots
I disconnect the me in me

And you're mistaken, It's you that's faking
Living and breathing and dying too
This message is for anyoine who dares to hear a fool

You can't bring me back, you can't bring me back
Cause I give it all back to you

Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks
Wreak their havoc upon this world
The disenchanted, the romantics,
The body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole

Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart
And you, you make me so I need to disconnect
And you make it so real

I don't need your love to disconnect

To runaround kids in get-go cars
With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs
Galaxies full of nobodies
Giving us the farewell runarounds

I took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby jane,
lost my innocence to a no good girl, scratch my
face with anvil hands, and coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth
And I give it all back to you

No way, I don't need it, I don't need your love to disconnect
And you make it, so real, I don't need your love to disconnect

No way to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect


Farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights

And let me be, let me die inside

Let me know the way from of this world of hate in you
Cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back

And we're all dead yeah we're all dead

In side the future of a shattered past
I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings

Bless the martyrs and kiss the kids
For knowing better, for knowing this
Cause you're all whores and I'm a fag
And I've got no mother and I've got no dad

To save me the wasted, save me from myself
I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel

Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
Everbody's lost just waiting to be found
Everyone's a thought just waiting to fade

So fuck it all cause I don't care

So what somehow somewhere we dared
To try to dare to dare for a little more

I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no reasons


current mood: contemplative

(you will never go down to the gods again)

4:57 am - NIN - Gave Up


perfect little dream the kind that hurts the most
forgot how it feels well... almost
no one to blame always the same
open my eyes wake up wake up wake up wake up... wake up in flames

it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me see the light
smashed up my sanity
smashed up my integrity
smashed up what i believed in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smashed up all that was true
gonna smash myself to pieces
i don't know what else to do

covered in hope and vaseline
still cannot fix this broken machine
watching the hole it used to be mine
just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
of the trust i will betray
give it to me i throw it away
after everything i've done i hate myself for what i've become

it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me see the light
smashed up my sanity
smashed up my integrity
smashed up what i believed in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smashed up all that was true
gonna smash myself to pieces
i don't know what else to do


i tried
i gave up
i tried
i gave up
i tried
i gave up
i tried
i gave up
i tried
i gave up
i tried
i gave up
i tried
i gave up
i tried
i gave up

smashed up my sanity
smashed up my integrity
smashed up what i believed in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smashed up all that was true
gonna smash myself to pieces
i don't know what else to do


throw it away
throw it away
throw it away
throw it away...


current mood: indescribable

(you will never go down to the gods again)

4:07 am
"The Bible says God loves all his creatures."

"Yeah? Got a funny way of showing it, doesn't he?"

(you will never go down to the gods again)

Sunday, August 22nd, 2010
4:10 pm - Fucking hate august. >____>


Well the required one friend to be sacrificed every august has been filled.

R.I.P.


Karen Sczomak

aka Skuzz. <3


Ya'll kids gotta be careful with your medications.


current mood: sad

(you will never go down to the gods again)

Sunday, August 8th, 2010
1:31 pm

I got a twitter.

Username; Anjisocks.

Basically, add me if you do anything interesting so I can add you and live through people I know. Hahahaha.

I never really update with anything serious on there. That all comes here.

And I guess I'm going to conform once again and get a facebook. *gasp*

-Anji
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current mood: blah

(you will never go down to the gods again)

Monday, May 21st, 2007
6:09 pm

I am so confused.

What the fuck is up with me.

And why the hell do I still miss you.

What might of been, what could of been, it's all neverending.

In the end, things are all the same and I'm the same, withstanding.

Nothing could change, nothing should change.

Yet we're all just tap dancing on quicksand, singing the same old fucking songs.

Pay attention to the details, ignore the big picture.

Get yourself lost in the exact hexadecimal code of the color, ignore what the pixels actually create.

I just don't fucking know anymore.

Nor did I to begin with?


current mood: confused

( i smashed my soul |you will never go down to the gods again)

Sunday, February 4th, 2007
7:13 pm


you had all of them on your side, didn't you?
you believe in all your lies, didn't you?
the ruiner's got a lot to prove he's got nothing to lose and now he made you
believe
the ruiner's your only friend well he's the living end to the cattle he deceives
the raping of the innocent you know the ruiner ruins everything he sees

now the only pure thing left in my fucking world is wearing your disease

how did you get so big?
how did you get so strong?
how did you get so hard?
how did you get so long?

you had to give them all a sign, didn't you?
you had to covet what was mine, didn't you?

the ruiner's a collector he's an infector serving his shit to his flies
maybe there will come a day when those that you keep blind will suddenly realize

maybe it's a part of me you took to a place I hoped it would never go
and maybe that fucked me up so much more than you'll ever know


how did you get so big?
how did you get so strong?
how did you get so hard?
how did you get so long?

what you gave to me
my perfect ring of scars
you know I can see what you really are
you didn't hurt me nothing can hurt me
you didn't hurt me nothing can stop me now


current mood: okay

( i smashed my soul |you will never go down to the gods again)

Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
8:04 am

As a reminder...



Friends only. Comment to be added.

(you will never go down to the gods again)

Friday, August 4th, 2006
1:42 am

So a bunch of bad stuff has been happening.

Including Baka cat needing emergency vet, and Molly getting her faced ripped open by Questor and needing to go to the vet.

I don't have money for this right now, taking Baka cost $300 for them just to clean and bandage her wound and she has to go back, they both need antiobiotics, there's a transmission problem with my car, just lots and lots of problems.

So right now I'm selling off most of mine and my mom's BPAL collection.

Imps range from $3-$5. I can also make body sprays, lotions, shower gel and the like on request. Oh, and bath salts. I'm working on compiling a list of all the scents I'm going to have available for sale, so if anyone wants to help out the we're poor and the animals are hurt fund, let me know how many things you'd be interested in buying/anyone you know who might be interested in buying something.

Oh, also selling MAC makeup in Kitchmas and Faerylite for $4 a container.

-Anji-

( i smashed my soul |you will never go down to the gods again)

Sunday, July 23rd, 2006
7:35 pm


Time to go spam ANJI WITH LOVE OR HATE TIME. And if you don't do it I will be REALLY MAD.

So there. :p

And I just got out of the hospital so do AS I SAY DAMNIT. XD

http://dreaminoflorien.livejournal.com/371681.html?view=6239969#t6239969


current mood: cranky

( i smashed my soul |you will never go down to the gods again)

Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
9:59 pm

Soooo.

Baby appears to be okay! Will not know for sure until doctor visit but yes!

Most stubborn baby in the world; refused to move for the ultrasound for an hour and a half. Had to run up and down a hallway for twenty minutes, move into every position in the world, go take a piss, drink some water, --really anything to try and get baby to move.

Found out......

IT'S A GIRL.

And they messed up big time on how far along I was, so right now I'm in my fifth month as opposed to my sixth month. X_X Which means I'm going to end up with a SCORPIO baby more then likely right around my birthday. XD I never wanted a baby for my birthday, LOL. It follows in with family tradition though.

Hmmmm, well I need to go update my baby registry and stuff now, need to eat some food and take my pre-natal vitamins. Just wanted to let everyone know, and I'll update again soooooon with more information. XDDD

-Anji-


current mood: awake

( i smashed my soul |you will never go down to the gods again)

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